Tuesday, August 7, 2012

If God is just, then why don't He punish the bad people right away?

This question has been bugging me since I was young. Every time I am unjustly treated by my friends or my cousins. Whenever I am at the receiving end of the world's unfairness, I get angry at God. Sometimes I wonder why some bad people prosper while the kind people suffer unceasingly. I thought there must be some profound imbalance or disorder of things happening in this confusing world. This disorder has been presented in my childlike eyes as something I cannot accept. Even now that I am a young adult, I cannot understand how worst humans can get and how on the opposite can they seem to be kind. Humans still don't fail to fascinate me.


law of empty cup


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lose someone because of pride! did it just happen to me? hahahahahahahah what the hell! i dont care! hahahaah if he doesn't care then why the hell should I? As you said you got burned? well yeah..literally you got burned..i'm guessing that your friends must have known what happened..and how bitter it became.  I so happened to see one of your friends early today..in one of the most conspicuous places around UP cebu (where else but the internet cafe). I was trying to print some billing docs for TBI then woosh the face flashed before my very eyes. He suddenly smiled at me..with that hint of a "i-know-something-about-you-smile"..i cant help but sigh.. After what felt like forever in my failed attempts to key in my 32-character password in gmail, i finally succeeded. I got the documents printed, and paid the rent for our space in TBI. I scurried the alleys of brown gate-royal cafe, green house, photocopying booth..and yeah.. that up-cebuavenue (in the hope of not seeing the ghost of your stoic face!) I was gasping for breathe inside..I'm quite surprised..how you still affect me in much the same intensity even in your absence. Well i guess that's just how the law of emptiness works (im making up my own senile law again! hahaha)

empty cup demands to get a fill. in my case, i don't think i need a fill, i needed to break the cup to destroy all possibility of filling it in. whatever is so compelling with this situation? its like fight and flight every time I think of the possibility of running in to you again. what the hell! hhahahahaha this is so high school! I can't believe I haven't outgrown this defensive tactic!